I often get nervous about what’s coming up around the next corner. This last weekend, I finally bit the bullet and tore some wood paneling out of my bathroom, extremely nervous to see what I’d find. Terrified of what I might find. It’s not like mold or rot or anything else would magically appear when I pulled the paneling back, but it’s scary to face the truth sometimes.
What I found was not as bad as it could have been. I found no mold, no rot, just some torn up walls where tiles used to be. But I realized that I only started to get worried when I was going to pull the paneling back, not the last six months I’ve lived in the house. If there were mold, it would have been there for six months now. Yet I was worried when I had to face it. Sometimes I live like that.
I am afraid to expose my soul, not because of what’s been there the whole time, but because I’ve got to deal with it now.
We put off lots of things in our lives. I looked at a navy blue spot on the ceiling of my last house for months because I didn’t want to go get the ceiling paint and touch it up. We put off a closer walk with God, because of sins we’ll have to confess, or give up. We put off time with family because of how we’ve spent the last few months or years obsessing over work.
I know it’s not fun; I know you might find rot or mold that you’ll have to deal with, but I encourage you to take some time and pull back the paneling of your heart today. Because whether you deal with it today, or the next year it’ll be there. Putting it off won’t make it any better.